Monday, January 14, 2008

Ego Trip

"The doors, the doors, in wisdom let us attend." Shut the doors to the senses. Close them one at a time until you have closed all six. Lock them securely.

Incence is a useless stick until it burns itself away into beautiful fragrance.

Cut off the ego. It is nothingness grasping at everything.

What does it want? It wants to be admired, for everything. It wants to be admired for its looks; for its intelligence; for its talent; for its courage; for its spirituality; for its athleticism.

But what is admiration but a vaprous ghost? What if no one admires me for my looks, my mind, my athletic prowess? What if no one admires me for my courage or my spirituality? What if I never become a great author? What if I have none of these things? What if I am none of these things? What if no one admires me? What then have I lost? Nothing! I have lost nothing because admiration is a thing that no one can possess at all. It is not mine. It is not a part of me.

5 comments:

Quercus said...

Do you mean the desire for love, or the will to love?

Ishmael said...

Both I suppose. How's that for ambiguous?

Quercus said...

Why did you alter your original post?

Ishmael said...

Well, for a couple of reasons. First, I never really thought that the comments at the end were really part of the original thought; they felt more like an afterthought that was awkwardly stuck onto the end. Second, I thought it sounded a bit preachy and pretentious. What was that warning about too many words?

Jen said...

You have lost nothing because admiration from others does not mean anything. Reading your post reminded me of something I recently read from Fr. Stephen Freeman:

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"God matters and what matters to God matters...There are many things that do not matter - because they do not matter to God. Knowing the difference between the two - what matters to God and what does not requires that we know God."
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I believe that the more we know God (a very slow process), the less our ego will dominate. We know God through prayer and the sacraments and by little acts of kindness and service (ie: choosing to help others when we'd rather be left alone).